Talent Show ( June 11, 2012)

WE had our annual talent show in PAS today and that me say that I was quite entertained. The show kicked off with rock band playing. I didn't get to hear much of the music, but I could feel the vibration in my veins even at present. Next act, Angela and Jenny sang THat's what makes you beautiful and the song whose lyrics involved" When I see your face, there's not a thing that I will change"( I forgot the title of the song). It was quite a crowd-pleaser. Everyone was listening intently. After that, we had Andy from elementary playing drums along side with some music. He was good. We also had Melody playing the piano which was cute. We had Angelica and Chica and Candy singing and performing the song by Taylor Swift called Safe and Sound. Candy's saxophone added quite an effect to the performance. What was really the biggest uproar was conducted by Ben, Jeremy and a couple of others who decided to host a teacher-teasing performance. Before they performed, they expressed that it was not their intention to offend anyone. They kicked right in and the audience responded with laughter. This Talent Show really was quite interesting.

Musical Reflection ( June 10, 2012)

With the " Yo eee ho, yo ho"s still fresh in my mind  I sit down to type tonight's entry. Yesterday night was big. It was the finale of this school year's event and the hard work we had contributed all year. Dorothy, Tin man, Toto, Scarecrow, and the lion finally embraced their journey across the yellow brick road in front of real audiences. They did a magnificent job I'd say. Every emotion was exaggerated to an extent and the energy level was radiant. The orchestra did quite a magnificent job as well. For a total of two hours and a half, we squinted down in our tiny black chairs and poured our hearts out. We played until we became indifferent to the audience and everyone else. The only thing in our minds were the notes  and to get them right. I got many notes wrong, that I could say. In general, I was happy that people were so devoted. I will not claim to deny the fact that I had scoffed , yes, at complaints shot at us through practice, but in the end, it seemed like it was all worth it. Next year I think I will still join the orchestra and the year after that and the year after that. It will be quite interesting. Anyway, the musical is an excellent way to draw this school year to a conclusion.

Summer Vacation ( June 7, 2012)

I contributed most of my time this week to orchestra and the musical. I don't regret it however. Finally, I realized the reason I stuck with orchestra for so long. It surprised me at first, but I found out that I actually LIKED playing in the orchestra. Needless to say, I am not the most talented player on the team( composed of a mere twenty. Middle and High schoolers combined). In fact, I am perhaps the least skilled and laziest teammate to ever be on the team. While I could get the notes right, I could not quite get the beat right. Orchestra has been a torture for the past few months it is a miracle that I stuck with it despite of everything. The last two days changed how I felt about orchestra, music, and myself. I got to sit next to a good middle schooler this time and mimicked how she played. After learning how to play, I realized that this is actually quite fun! My love for violin has been reignited. Isn't this what orchestra is supposed to be about? Yay. Anyway, I should probably get back to my topic that I wrote on the top. This summer I would like to boost my english level and math levels. It will be quite beneficial for me throughout the rest of my learning career which stretches on to infinity.

The Musical ( June 6, 2012)

I almost forgot to write my journal today. Okay, let's see. Today we had a full day rehearsal for our school musical the wizard of oz. Setting the long waiting hours aside, we were berated by our wonderful director Ms. Sherry for being sloppy and lacking energy of any kind. I wouldn't exactly say she stand corrected, cause she doesn't. We really were sloppy and our energy level was low. Yet speaking from a child's point of view, summer is only a  few days away. It is just around the corner! Freedom is just outside where you can reach with a few baby steps, how can you resist? Besides, anyone would have gotten tired after rehearsing for a whole day right? Oh well. We'd better get used to this cause we're doing it again TOMORROW. Yeah, hear that? Tomorrow, we'll be doing this again. This time, the rehearsal time has been extended till five in the afternoon. Oh joy. Well, I suppose directors do have the power to just change schedules when they felt it was needed. I'm not technically a direct participant in the musical , but I'm in the orchestra. Sometimes I wished I Was in the musical because that way I could at least have people know my face.

What day is today? ( June 5, 2012)

I woke up this morning with the strangest sensation. I lied in my  bedroom, staring up the high protruding ceilings and wondered, " hmm....What day is today?" For a second I even wondered where i am and who I was. That moment passed quickly, almost just as quickly as it has come, I remembered where I was and who I am. I remembered that today is Tuesday, the last day of Finals. I had been looking forward to this day all month. Literally, I was pinning for this magical moment. My head was still ringing and my body wasn't coordinated. But I remembered where I was.I felt my father's presence as he opened the door a gentle crack and called for me to get up. I am here. I wasn't here a minute ago. IN fact, I don't even know where I was. My soul was set adrift and left an empty shell of flesh and bones wondering where the heck I am and what is my history. I always managed to remember the day of the weeks. It becomes a part of your innate abilities after being a student for at least ten years. The first time I don't remember what day is today is a day I will remember. And that is why I recording this down into my journal today. A strange, eerie kind of feeling.

Survivor ( June 4, 2012)

I am a survivor in many ways. It is in my blood. I am born to survive. All living things are. Ok, now this is a bit stupid. These lines are supposed to open up for the rest of my text which is again, about finals. I didn't do so well on finals this few weeks. It was quite upsetting, but it gave me a direction to start. So in a way, it is a good thing. Tomorrow will be our last exam for this final week and it will be great! After math test, I will have fun and eat popcorn and drink sodas and watch movies. It's going to be a blast. I am totally looking forward to that moment. I have survived finals and I will conquer them! Haha. Ok. I finished the book today and it was awesome! I so look up to the main character, he is so courageous and honorable. Such a nice character. Always putting himself in front of danger just to protect the ones he loved, which is quite a lot. He is the person who would do things that are either the bravest thing the world has ever witnessed or the stupidest thing the world has ever seen. His fatal flaw is his loyalty to his friends. How cool is that? I mean, it's not cool and could be painful, but from an outsider's point of view, it shows that he is a very good person.

Easy Teasy ( June 3, 2012)

This weekend was probably one of the best weekends I've ever had. Although I still had to study for math, this weekend was paradise in comparison to the passing week( especially with Thursday night when I Had to study for bio test) haha. I got an acceptable grade for that but I'm pretty sure Mr. Smart curved the grade. Happy ending for everyone I guess. I don't know why I named this blog post Easy Teasy probably because I thought this weekend compared to the others were easy teasy. I suppose? Well anyway. This weekend I finally discovered how to download books on 4shared and it was AWESOME! I know this is technically illegal, so I won't do it too often. Pirates, haha. Yeah, the more I type this the more guilty I felt. THe author has to send time writing this master piece, and yet I read his work without paying the price? That is unreasonable. I should consider deleting the book soon. But the book was so good. I love the main character, he's quite amazing! I hope he could get together with someone other than his old girlfriend, but still...I really love is character! It's quite amazing. I know I've already said that. Haha.

The day has come ( May 31, 2012)

The day has finally come. The biology final is finally tomorrow. I am happy and relieved. Now before you go ahead and think I'm crazy, allow me to summarize the chaos I've been through throughout the course of this week. Actually, I don't want to get into the details. Anway, you know that this week I've been worrying nonstop about this biology exam. Tomorrow all my worries will be worry after the morning. Such a gracious moment! So instead of focusing on all the studying I will have to do the next morning, I focus on the aftermath. I hope to write swiftly  on the paper and get the score I want.  YAY!. Even though after this I'd have to try my best to complete my MUN reading assignment, possibly our last ever, but stilll....Well anyway, as any other entries i've written this week, I want to end this one as quickly as possible. But I'm not kidding about the part about the biology exam and how I'm looking forward to it. Today generally was a pretty good day and something really unexacting happened to me that left me pretty happy for the set of the day! I won! Yay! I will fill my friends in the details tomorrow if they ask:) YAY!

La isla bonita ( May 30, 2012)

Glee did a coverage of Madonna's " La Isla Bonita" awhile ago and since then, the song has been somewhat imprinted in my mind. It was a beautiful song. Basically the song is about a girl and a guy I think on an island and such as their paradise. Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong, my spanish sucked and I have a major issue with lyrics. Anyway, this leads to today's topics which is " la isle bonita" for other people. Rebecca Black, internet fame, also has an isle bonita. Rebecca attracted a lot of haters after her release of her first song" Friday". People thought she was stupid and so forth, and maybe she is. Actually, never mind, this has nothing to do with la isla bonita. I was kind of hoping something incredibly deep will occur to me and send my fingers flying across the keyboard. I guess I was wrong. I have overestimated myself. ONE MORE DAY! Then on friday after Biology final, I will be free to peruse what I'd like for the weekend. Even though I'd have to stay for math. Such a bliss. To be relieved from biology! IMAGINE THAT! OMG! OMG! Oh well, tomorrow I will finish up all the english stuff. Good enough for now.

Procrastination ( may 29, 2012)

Procrastination is truly a student's worst enemy. This week I am pretty toast. In a terrible way. Well of course, I don't think this expression can be used in a positive way. Well anyway, today was quite tiring and I'm going to bed soon and getting up early tomorrow morning. On the positive side, once I survive tomorrow's exams I will be able to peruse whatever I want to study. I can finishing studying Biology and memorize it and do well on the test on Friday. Then I can go home and have a mini celebration then study math. Then I can have a fantastic math test and then SUMMER VACATIon! I am so looking forward to that! You know what's best? I finish the exam before my brother starts his. I GET TO PLAY AND HAVE FUN IN FRONT OF HIM! hahaa. Weary has left me with an idle brain. lol. Well it's a good thing that there is no basketball practice this week and the next. YAY! I wouldn't have made it anyway. Now I'm just blabbering, but I could exactly hep it, could I? Hm...what else happened today? Not much really. The classes went pretty ok and I had some fun in school as usual. OH well. Good Night everyone :)

Finals Week( May 28, 2012)

Finals Week is finally here! Imagine in just a few days we will be free and can have our wonderful summer vacation! I'm actually happy that we'll have most of our finals this week so we can have almost the entire next week to rest and have fun ourselves. I am strangely pumped about this final and was not as nervous as I should have been. Perhaps I stopped seeing finals as a single test that will determine my future, haha. Biology have nine chapters, and I am going over the most difficult ones right now. Hopefully, the teacher will give us time to study in his class tomorrow. THat would have been a bliss:) Our Romeo and Juliet test will be open book, and that strangely comforted me. I have to get up early tomorrow morning to study and I also have spanish final on wednesday. While I somehow envy my classmates for not having to endure studying spanish, I know this is inevitable. Oh well, whining won't get you anywhere would it? I guess not. This should help me in the future, you know? Working under pressure and stuff. Biology is actually a fascinating subject. It would have been more fascinating if we're not testing on it so soon :D

Video Project and Finals Week ( May 27, 2012)

Today my friends and I got together and filmed the video project for the Vietnam War. It was a fairly interesting concert. We couldn't figure out how to shift camera angles and made a fuss over everything. First we fussed over my clothes, as I wore only a casual PAS T-Shirt with black pants. Angela or Jenny lent me a tie and I wore it over the rest of the meeting, hoping that would count as dressing up. Haha. ANyway, the video was fairly interesting. Either way, next week Wednesday will mark the beginning of finals week. We will be tested on spanish and biology. Spanish is challenging, but if I memorize the book, I should be ok. biology has 9 chapters, which is a lot, so I'm trying to start doing that right now. So yeah...I probably will have to miss basketball practice this week though...well...I'll go on Friday. Hm...well biology was fairly interesting anyway. The human anatomy...quite interesting...better then just rules and stuff. I'm gal,d however, that this finals week was divided into two weeks. That is just awesome. My burden was much relieved by that:) We won't have a history final! WHICH IS EVEN BETTER! OK !

Achilles's heel ( May 24, 2012)

Achilles, otherwise all mighty and invincible, had a heel as his mortal spot. If any harm was casted in the heel's way, Achilles would die instantly. During the siege of Troy, a spear hit achilles by his heel and he instantly deceased. Everyone has an achilles's heel, their weak spot. But that is not my point today. Today I went to PASMUN conference in my MUN attires. While I like the change in fashion, the high heels were killing me.The hard leather rubbed against my heel and created a burning pain. That was what inspired me to title today's journal. Not because I am going to talk about my fatal flaw, but because I thought it would be a good opener for my topic later. I realized today that women goes to great length for beauty. I mean, I've known this before, but never until today had I realized that beauty( or social view of beauty) comes at a great cause. Just like at my HEEL! It BURNS! No wonder some women wanted to change the way society see beauty in women. I don't think that is really possible within a short period of time, but still...Maybe in the future, someone can invent heels that don't harm my heels. So I can wear them without much of a struggle.

Seize the day ( May 23, 2012)

Tons of activities are piling up my shoulders these two or three weeks. Last week we had spring fair, and I ended up spending almost all of my Sunday for school activities. This week is PASMUN. As press, I probably wouldn't assume as much work as other delegates, but still, it could be a tiresome job. What more, it required us to go to school on SATURDAY! MY SAFE HEAVEN DAY! OMG. All right, I know that being in MUN means more work and also special privileges. In comparison to other clubs and so forth, MUN is the most prominent club that our school has ran. Many were fired up about PASMUN and were very committed. THat is always good to see. You see, our school doesn't take these extra leisures very seriously. MUN and the musical are the two rare things that I school actually took seriously and devoted a significant amount of time one. Probably because they look good on college applications, but whatsoever. IT benefits us all. Anyway, despite of the extra work, I am looking forward to PASMUN tomorrow and fruitful debates. It will be interesting. Yep, real interesting. Oh well. I'd better get going now, goodbye:)

PASMUN prep( May 22, 2012)

I ended up returning at five today when I could have gone home at three thanks to my carelessness. It never really occurred to me that I would have to write an article since I am in the press team for PASMUN until today. If it weren't for the teacher's warning, I probably still wouldn't have written it up until now. That would result in something quite devastating. Hm...Well, after that I had to hunt down the editors of the PASMUN newsletter and managed to get from them the topic that I was supposed to write. After that, I had to stay in the classroom and finish my article on the spot. IN retrospect, I Was actually extremely focused. If you were to look under my skull, you would see electricity sparkling all over my brain as my brain cells were rapidly at work. My fingers flew across the keyboard. It took me about one hour to finish the video. It shouldn't have taken me that long since I was a little distracted midway when the charis gave the admin staffs instructions. Anyway, I'm glad that I finished my article and I am looking forward to PASMUN this year. It should be quite interesting since all my friends are in it. I could finally hear how the debate :)

Sometimes ( May 21, 2012)

I am determined to get through this post as quick as possible, as I have a math test. I Have to go home early today, and I'm sure some people from the team wouldn't be happy about it. I apologize. Anyway, as I said, I need to get this post done fast, and I hope my candid approach will be rewarded in someways. Sometimes, I sit and wonder, how people could loose their dignity in the face of profit. There has been an enormous amount of television shows featuring dramas with this very theme. Not saying, of course, that I was watching the drama, it was just something that left a deep impression on  you and will jump out every few weeks or months. These things scare me. In one of the dramas, a friend of a girl conspired with her ex boyfriend to rope from her her inheritance from her grandfather. How they plan to do that? They plan to hide the will from the girl as the girl did not know the grandfather wrote her a will. They got their share of the inheritance, but refused to let the girl know that she also had a share. Years later when the bank account has expired, did ex boyfriend told the girl of the truth. The girl was furious, but there is nothing she could do. She thought didn't expect anything from their friendship, but it turned out, she did. In her own twisted way, she has managed to fool herself in thinking ath whatever her friends did was none of her business. She thought they couldn't touch her, but they could. What especially hurt her was that her " friends" went behind her back, and now she can no longer trust or forgive either of them.

The Piano Guys ( May 20, 2012)

The Piano Guys is a brand new youtube sensation. Two musicians- John and Sharp Nelson- the piano and the cello-collaborated to become an instant hit on youtube. Their group which is called the piano guys do covers of songs that inspired them. I've visited their website once and it gave me a brief recount of their history which I will now give to you. John I think was one day going to buy or sell a piano and the seller or buyer found out he had amazing skills. He was then later introduced to SHarp Nelson who was a even bigger sensation at times who totally rocked his cello. The two decided to collaborate and the piano guys is born. The Piano guys has high definitioned music videos from different beautiful sceneries from their beautiful Utah, and they never repeat or overlap. It is one of their defining traits. Now I will teach you about recognizing their music. Actually, I only know one trait and here it is: Nelson liked to provided the rhythm of the song by tapping on his cello and the effect was quite well. So whenever you hear taipan in the background of some real good music, high chance that it may be the Piano Guys. I think their music was pretty inspiring.

Spring Fair ( May 17, 2012)

Spring fair is just around the corner! This sunday, I will rise from bed early six in the morning and eat breakfast in silence. Then I will ride joyfully on the back of my father's car as he drives me to the site where I will be remaining until two in the afternoon. Joy. Our class has high expectations for our sell this year. We are selling mexican food, ice cream, sodas and water  this year. We will sell mexcian food food 50 NT each, ice cream for 30 NT earache, Sodas for 20 NT each I think. I personally have only a few concerns. First of all, most taiwanese people are not familiar with mexican food. When thinking of foreign foods, they think of the hot spicy Thai food, the long sphagettis of Italian, and the juicy large american beef. Most wouldn't even know what a taco. It will be a little hard to persuade these people to buy something they've never seen or tasted before. They might just move on to other booths. That is my primary concern. My secondary concern is that the price of the food may be higher then expectations. This can weight us down. Still, the smell of the roasted cheese should draw people in. I will definitely buy a serving!

Never ( May 16, 2012)

Today in this blog post I will go over the things in life that has been branded a " never " sign. This blog post probably doesn't make much sense but, what in life really does anyway? Can you perhaps explain to me how the first cell popped onto Earth? Or perhaps how and why the big bang occurs? Can you perhaps explain to me how and why we actually exist and the world we live in exists? No, I would suppose not. Not with our limited knowledge anyway( which is what makes science exciting). Robert Mknara once branded one of the lessons he learned in his life , " Never say never". The grammar police will probably now be on full alert as I was informed by one of them that this is a double negative. Justin Beiber also used this phrase in one of his hit singles titled " Never say Never" that further enhances his fame and fortune after puberty. Anyway, those are two occasions one " never" has been adopted effectively. THe message was clear. Nothing is impossible. Everything is doable as long as we do our very best. Yada, yada, yada...Not saying that this is not a good philosophy cause it is. It's just one of those things that gets slightly ridiculed after being popular for so long like those " an apple a day keeps the doctor away" idioms.

Gloom( May 15, 2012)

Those who had seen me this morning must have sense this stormy grey aura shadowing over my head as I strode down the hall. I can imagine my facial expression be a mixture of great discontent and annoyance. Nobody tried to talk to me until Geometry class almost ended when I almost forgot about my deadly gloom. So why was I so gloomy this morning? For starters, I didn't get enough sleep the other night and was indeed wearied. Second of all, I engaged in a fight with family member and had tears swelling in my eyes as I approached the doorsteps. These two factors combined was enough to throw me into a way grumpy mood. I hid out in the cafeteria for the thirty minute before the spring fair announcement. Well anyway, I forgot about my gloom after Geometry and set out to Biology with a renewed self. After that I slept for about twenty minutes and felt much more revived. Well, it is a good thing that I was lifted out of mine and everyone else's miseries so quickly. I heard that is a good quality. Some people gets angry easily and remain angry for a very long period of time. We usually try to stay clear from those people. Well, I guess I should probably try to get more sleep tonight.

Yellow and Blue ( May 14, 2012)

The title for this post is completely random. I wonder how am I going to write a entire 200 word blog post about two colors anyway. It is true that yellow is bright and energetic like the sun and is one of my favorite colors. It used to be the color I would claim whenever someone asked for my favorite color. IT still is one of my favorite up to this point. However, as time passed, I no longer say yellow is my favorite color. Instead, now I say white or blue. Weird huh? Blue is one of the most famous colors as it is used all around and people liked that color a lot. Quite interesting indeed as well. Why blue? What is so special about blue? I guess blue resembled the color of the sky and the ocean, and since those two things had been the dominant important things in human life, blue became a popular color. My friends like pink and purple, two very girly colors. I like these colors too, I guess. Once when I tried to seize the chance when they were talking about sparkles to tease them about being " girly", they rebuked in reunion , " We are girls.". I was very much defeated, I supposed. hmmm....Well, looks like I really had completed a whole journal centering around yellow and blue. Good Night :)

Mother's Day ( May 13, 2012)

This Sunday is the great Mother's Day the world was busy celebrating. In the cartoon Kick Buttowski, the supermarket was overflowed with people on the Sunday morning busy trying to make their mothers a last minute " breakfast in bed". My mother doesn't enjoy eating in bed, however. In tradition, I would make a handmade card and present it to mom the night or noon of mother's day. This year, I learned how to press flowers and make them long-lasting and wanted to give Mom something like that. I ended up doing a video instead, though. It was four minutes and composed of three separate messages. I played the song by Elton John performed by Christina Grimmie in the background. The video starts out with a little opening message that said simply and clearly - " Happy Mother's Day". Then after that, there was a short video clip of a drawing of a boat and the ocean. Then a line followed. The beginning of the video opened like that, and then the music came in midway during the second drawing. After this, there was a picture show of Mom and the family. Then after that was another brief message as the song drew to an end. I hope Mom will like that.

Confession ( May 10, 2012)

I have a confession to make: I didn't do much today. I almost forgot to type this blog post and that result would have been disastrous. I intend to finish up my work in tomorrow's study session you know, with better and more brutal energy ( that is required to battle Geometry). I am currently reading the book" Thirteen Reasons Why" and found it quite a stunning debut. The emotional journey of Hannah Baker and Clay Jenkins were incredible, and so authentic. I don't exactly know where to begin, and I don't exactly want to spoil what I have read to those who have not, but the book is about a girl - Hannah who suicided weeks ago and Clay receiving a package with tapes that explained why she decided to end her life. The book was quite gloomy, but the plot was good. I fell sorry for everyone who was involved in Hannah's death. None of them knew even the slightest of their actions can lead down to a chain reaction. The tapes will change their lives forever. I particually pitted Clay. He seemed like such a nice guy with a kind heart. HE doesn't know at which degree did he scarred HAnnah, nor does the readers. I don't see how someone like Clay could do anything to anybody that might potentially harm them.

THe Wanderer ( May 9, 2012 )

While humanity has a tendency of settling in one place in order to prosper, there are a selected few who decided not to follow the consent rule of humanity. Back in the olden days, these people would be called travelers, and wanderers. Today, these people will simply be called " someone who enjoys traveling". It is true that traveling is no longer a career for many people except for those venturing into the unknown depths of the Amazon. And even those jobs are scarce. It seemed like humanity has explored all the possible profitable places ever existed on Earth. Being an explorer became something more similar to a bizarre dream. It is no longer easy to become one. Today, I read Homer's writing of " The Wanderer" - the versatile Odyccoius. I admired his wits and cleverness. Yet I dislike the one he became vain and boasts. I don't suppose it had occurred to him that he was the reason that his shipmates never made it home. This warn us against huge egos. We really shouldn't have them. His pride made him a wanderer, while he himself may rather not be one, his name remained on our textbooks. And it will stay there until eternity.

May 7, 2012 ( Making things right)

I decided that today I should write a journal entry about how I should and would make things right for myself in the future. I will wave goodbye to my past mistakes and restart fresh and new. That is always good, isn't it? So here we go. Actually, I want to talk about something else first. Today, I would like to talk about PASMUN. This year PASMUN I will be a reporter for the press. I am actually quite excited for that. I remembered having a pretty good experience with pass work in TAIMUN. PASMUN shouldn't be any worse, or would it be? OH well, it isn't exactly up to myself to decide, is it? I forgot to post this journal entry yesterday and will have to post it today. Which means I'm late but actually I typed it yesterday...Okay, I guess no one would like to hear me blabber. In fact, I bet tons of people had already chose to click on something else for the time being. For those of you who stayed strong and supportive and read up to this line, I congratulate you on your courage. It will certainly get you very far in life. I know this is not the first time I Stated this, as I had typed something with similar contents before, but anyway. I hope you still enjoyed it :)

heros ( May 8, 2012)

Our quick write assignment today inspired me to name today's entry titel- Heros as it lead me to ponder over what a hero really is. After some consideration, I decided that the qualities I named in my previous entry ( Mortal and self-sacrifice) are not wrong. How can someone be great when they have everything already? We see heroes all around us, committing to different things. A person who donated money to charity when he himself was not super rich can also be considered a hero. Now that I think of it, being a hero doesn't always have to come through self-sacrifice. Being a hero simply means one represents a value that is valuable to all. Determination can make someone a hero  as well. For example, there was a taiwanese painter who lost his hands and legs in an accident but with determination, succeeded in becoming a renowned painter. His story inspired millions. although he didn't commit a huge act that would rock the world to its feet, can you say that he is not a hero? Can you say the things he represented and the very values he stood for were not heroic or important? I guess you cannot. Everyone can be a hero, it really is entirely up to you.

Shake it out ( May 6, 2012)

Glee released their brand new cover single- Shake it out on the episode Choke. IN this episode, the prodigy talent Rachel choked on the song she  "knew backwards and forewords"- Don't Rain on my parade. She failed and didn't get into NYADA, or dream school. THe other aspect that glee focused on was domestic violence. Coach Beaste in this episode was suffering from domestic violence from her husband. SHe therefore showed up at school one day with a huge bruise across the school. Santana, Tina, and the others girls made fun of the coach and indirectly revealed their lack of knowledge on domestic violence. They were therefore obliged to sing a song about " no one can lay a hand on me". They finally settled with the song-Shake it out. I found it a beautiful song. It is one of those few songs we have these days where they lyrics are actually quite beautiful. Every demon wants his pound of flesh, but I''d like to keep somethings to my self. It's always darkest before the dawn. And I've been a fool and I've been blind, I can never leave the past behind. I can see no way I'm always dragging that horse around...( How beautiful) Shake it out shake it out! It is so beautiful! MY favorite line is: It's hard to dance with a devil on your back. That is SOOO beautiful. From this song, I can see how songs are the aftermath of ballads. This is such a beautiful song with meaningful, poetic lyrics and grate melody.

Words on the back of my hands ( May 3, 2012)

Those who had occasionally seem me marching down the hall way may have seen huge, angry letters scrawled across the back of my hands. Some times the letters are bright red screaming " English Homework!" and other times, they are a deep shade of blue bellowing its message with equal intensity - " Do English Journal!". I have a tendency of scribbling down things I most often forget on the back of my hands. I start out with my left hand as I am right handed and is more accustomed to writing with my right hand. Then if matters get out of hand, I will have to use my shaky left hand and doodle mishappened  letters on the back of my right hand. As you can probably tell already, I am quite careless when it comes to these little things in life. I had tried to fight this when I was a kid, but I gradually grew accustomed to this bad habit. Now, instead of combating carelessness, I tried methods to cope with it. To coexist with it. I write reminders on sticky notes and leave them on my desk reminding me to bring basketball journeys, or to write Expository Writing Homework. I scribble on my hands to remind myself to bring certain items to school. I also get members of my family to remind me to bring or do certain things.

Basketball (May 2, 2012)

I had the leisure of sitting by for basketball practice today and found the experience quite rewarding. Of course ,missing out the chance of competing in the regular schedule could potentially harm myself in the future, but I will not dwell on that thought. INstead, I will focus on what is good about this practice. I got to practice shooting baskets this class and found the process quite rewarding( As I said previously). I found out that I am a much better shooter than I give myself credit for . It turned out that with practice, I could get a lot further than I ever imagined. Lesson of the day : Practice and Get Better! In basketball team the girls were always divided into teams in accordance to their basketball skills. Now that the year was quickly coming to an end, the system was rearranged. At the beginning of the year when many competitions were alined for us, the strongest and the ones with the most experience gets lined together in one team regardless of your grade. A twelve grader could be in the same team as a ninth grader, if the ninth grader is great enough to make the pact. You would and should be honored to be invited into the team of the best and experienced. The rest of the girls which consisted of those who were not as good and those who were less experienced will be grouped into another team. There, they will learn the taste of defeat the hard way and eventually grow accustomed to that. Now the end of the year is approaching, the system changed. The least experienced people were grouped with the most experienced people that will either be leaving the team  next year or graduating. The remaining girls, which are the second strongest from this year, will begin working together at all times as they will become the forte for next year's competition. I never made the first string:P and had plenty of time to observe this. It seemed like I panic and don't know what to do whenever I was officially playing. Anyway, I wish good luck to the rest of the basketball team :)

Jesse ( May 1, 2012)

It is a pity that the sky does not one day rain virtual cats and dogs. Maybe if I looked hard enough, Jesse would be one of them. 

The rain dropped from the grey sky like a thousand fallen angels stripped of their wings that had once kept them adrift. Their color went from flawless crystal to irish black, until finally exploding like powder smoke beneath our feet. There they lay, refusing to move, as they awaited our trampling feet tear them into shreds. Their blood was colorless, and therefore, the world does not understand, or comprehend the slightest of their tragedies.The tragedies of dropping clean from the sky, and ending up into explosive smokes of dark hazard. Nobody would know who they were except for their distinguished selves, and it wouldn’t matter. 

Jesse used to detest rain. The rain gave him chills and he would circle the house whenever the back of his brain sent in a storm alert to make sure that his loved ones were safe and sound. If one of us were to duck out of his sight, he would go frantic. His little legs would carry him around the room, half floating, as he knocked over vases and break windows. He would only stop until he sees the person standing in front of him in one peice, then he would quiet down and whimper an embarrased whimper as if apologizing for the mess he’s created. 

Tiring practice ( APril 30, 2012)

I performed horribly in the basketball practice today( and when I say horribly, I mean even more horrible then usual). My head was not clear at all and I ran out of energy half way through the game. I lost tons of points because of my inactive defense style. I really don't have an excuse for this. Anyway, those forty minutes slipped past me but I was beyond exhaustion. Dissapointment and everything else combined to form one big swirling pool of quicksand, sucking me in with the upmost violence. I tried my best, but I failed. After having to drag my team mates into running four suicides instead of three due to my failures, I dragged my weary body back home and collapsed on bed. It wasn't until I took a thirty minute nap when I began to feel better. My legs  were still like steel at this point and  I could barely raise my arms without a painful sensation. Well, it's not really my place to complain anyway. I should work on efficiency when accomplishing works. Quantity and quality are equally important. I need to shorten my quantity while maintaing and improving my quality of work. I also need to work on vocabulary stuff. I suppose. I am looking forward to Friday when the bell that marked the ending of Geometry will mark an end to my miseries this week.

April 29, 2012 ( Interesting indeed)

My journal entries these days had been mostly about senseless little things, as there is not much to write about. I mean, what is there more to write about? My life has been the same as ever. I mean, not saying it is totally boring, it's just that, it's hard to make it sound exciting in writing. If I really were to actively capture every glimpse and moments going on in my life, I would be rambling on and on about the subjects I've studied and what new things is happening next week. Speaking of which, a spanish test may be soon approaching. But probably not next week, which is good. I already have an english and math exam. Which is bad enough. See, how boring it is? Considering the fact that I actually "do" have an " audience"since it's the internet, and it is very likely that someone will stumble onto this site by mistake. Interesting, huh? Interesting indeed. Alright, now I have officially ran out of things to write about. Oh well, not good. I still have to get up early tomorrow morning and study. Ok...now this is getting really boring. If you are someone who can sit through this, I congratulate you on your patience. It will certainly get you very far in life.

April 26, 2012 ( Weird)

I swear a few seconds ago I just typed out my 200 word journal, but then it all dissapeared. Hmm...weird. Anyways, as summer is on fast approach, one can no longer put her everything into academic works. He or she will be beyond excited to be free from the manacles she had to bear for one whole year! She would like to experience different things, different cultures, different worlds! She would like to get really really busy! I think I just missed a period or something there, but still, it doesn't matter! I am looking forward to an enriching sumer ahead! I hope to finally be able to do right in sports, academics, SATs, and excetera! Maybe focus more on music as well. I barely practiced this year and made very few progresses and breakthroughs. Just one more month to go! ONE MONTH! Can you believe that? I cannot believe that I am already in high school, a freshman, and next year, a sophomore. And next year, I will stand my ground and listen to the berating reproves of Ms. Pamela( for my own sake and good, of course). I will be admonished. Then I will thrive( hopefully). Anyways, as the school year is rapidly closing, I saw how fast time has passed me. Though it is still too early for me to wish it remain the same, I'm pretty sure that I would look back at these moments some point in time, and smile.

The Lost Hero ( April 25, 2012)

I recently took the book- The Lost Hero from the book shelf and started reading it, to my utter amazement it was really good. I know I had condemned the writing as unworthy of the first " Percy Jackson" series, but I found that I had to rethink this again. Cause this book really is great and awesome! Although I only got into two chapters, I was already engrossed. Memories of Camp Half Blood flooded me and I really was engrossed. This also excited me to do a book list of the books I wanted to get, and I came up with a list consisting like ten books. I'd really like to get them. Four at a time I think. Alright anyway, today, we are finally relieved from the burden of the tests. Whooh! What a relief! I felt as if I was almost floating after coming out of the spanish classroom, I wanted to drink a toast to myself but ended up not having time to do that. Anyways, great day :) I love the air conditioner that was recently turned on in my house, in fact, air conditioners are one of the things I liked most about summer. I know this sort of destroys the global and causes green house effects and everything, but air conditioner rocks! Alright, I can thereby conclude today's entry.

Yay ( April 24, 2012)

Today, I discovered that my summer might be quite great after all. A fresh, new opportunity has been opened for me again! Yay! Alright, that is actually only part of what I'd like to express in my journal today. I've dissevered a fresh way to study for history, and found it to be pretty effective. Yay. I found out there isn't an english test tomorrow, yay! I finished my history response in a far shorter amount of time I'd ever expect,  yay! Oh yeah! Ok, anything else? Not really. Alright, but that is enough to cheer me on. Today, I would also like to give a few heads up about a few figures I looked up to. I would like to discuss them in a more formal occasion perhaps tomorrow. Today is just like a pre-show. For is the Jen- Fon-Shi, who wrote the infamous book- the boat in the big ocean. He was born badly disabled and had to crawl instead of walk. Yet he overcame his difficulty with extreme courage and everything that we should learn. I'd really like to learn from him. Today at time when  I felt badly discouraged, I would think of him. If he could accomplish his dreams, I could too. I mean, I was born far more fortunate then him. So I really could do anything.

Rendering the power of classical fiction( April 23, 2012)

I could go on and on about this, but I will try to be as concise as possible in my journal entry today. I have recently started reading the infamous novel by one of the most delightful and cherished writers of all times written by Jane Austen- Pride and Prejudice. I have read this work in a simplified chinese version before and found myself quite engaged in the contents of the story. This time as my fingers skimmed through the pages marked with dark black prints of the victorian literature, I found myself even more engrossed. I adore the witty, bitter humor that was possessed by the heroine- Elizabeth Bennet and her father. I also enjoy reading about the conversations passed on between Elizabeth and Darcy as they debated on topics relating to vanity, pride, and prejudice. The dialogue between Mr. Bennet and Mrs. Bennet were also particularly amusing, as Mr. Bennet does not care for politeness with his wife and can speak whatever is on his mind. I, of course, also enjoyed the clashing romance throughout the novel. Unlike most modern novels, romance in this novel developed sweet, tenderly, and most realistically. There is no such context in the book that included a girl in some high school seeing a new guy and felt this irresistible attraction to him. She followed him around( or the other way around) and eventually found out he was a vampire. Sorry Twilight Fans, but this is mocking gold! Can't afford to miss it! Haha, just kidding.

Monday ( April 22, 2012)

The more one were to engage in his or her life and try his or her best to live it up to the fullest limit, the more they realized the boundaries of life that could not be defied. When people say " never say never", and that anything is possible, they are speaking of only peculiar affairs. Such as you know, personal goals. They are not, indeed no, speaking of the issues and laws of life that humans had attempted unsuccessfully to overcome throughout the century. An excellent example being the human course of life and the human nature. Well, the sole reason that I am writing so negatively in my journal entry today was because I found out that I would not be able to go on that special opportunity I had been so eagerly anticipating to go on after all. All the excitement for nothing, that is another undefined situation of life, isn't it? Well, I still hope to make the most out of my summer vacation even if I don't get to go to the place that I wanted to go and accomplish the thing I wanted to accomplish. Anyway, I'd better hurry off to bed before it is too late. I've still got orchestra tomorrow. Sigh, another undeniable aspect o life. Why couldn't we just do what we please all day? Why not? I'm not usually the whining type, but today , especially now, I wonder why we couldn't just do what we wanted to do. Why?

Life Experiences ( April 19, 2012)

The sole focus of Pacific American School is acadamical achievements that will enable students to get into excellent colleges. Due to that, every student entered PAS with one only wish: Get into the top ten colleges. Everything else can be sacrificed. I myself included.  I joined several programs because I wanted to gain credits. Two programs turned out I liked, one turned out I disliked, but I still continued doing this anyway. Seemed like the longer I remain in PAS, the more deeply I became a only book smart nerd that doesn't know how to do anything in the real world. I had no socialize skills or real life practical skills. In TAIMUN, it took me longer to actually get into the writing mode and figure out what really is going on. It also took me longer to gain the courage to go interview people. OVerall though, it was a great experience This summer I am looking forward to do another program that should really enrich my high school experiences as well. SO excited! I have started reading Pride and Prejudice and it was amazing. I love the witty remarks passed between Darcy and Elizabeth! Quite Awesome! I like it quite a lot. MY mom just came back from the parent teacher conference held today and I better go say hi. Alright, so I'll draw this journal to an end.

PASMUN ( April 18, 2012)

The annual PAS tradition that we students had grown to be proud of  is fast approaching: PASMUN or PAcific American School Model United Nations is just right around the corner. Last year, I had participated as an administrative staff in the Security Council. My experience there that year was what really intrigued me to join MUN this year myself. I remembered the debate hosted last year to be quite fruitful, and I have personally learned a lot about the issues concerning Libya and the drug cartels in Mexico just by listening to their active debates. This year, I have also became a PASMUN participant and will be handling the job as a reporter. The reporter size for the newspaper in PAS was incredibly small in comparison to TAIMUN. INstead of the huge number of 30, PASMUN contained only around 6. We only have two councils anyway. Never less I should look forward to the debates. All of my friends are delegates this year, and I should look forward to seeing their debate as well. There is one friend whose fierce nature I have knowledge of whose debate I would particularly enjoy spectating. I can already imagine her standing and giving points of information and try to tear her opponents down. It will really be quite interesting. Don't you think?

Excited ( April 17, 2012)

I'm pretty busy these days as I am entering so many new things. PASMUN is coming up at the end of may which is soon, I had a great time in TAIMUN and I don't expect PASMUN to be any different. Recently I have begun reading about Jane Austun's novels, I 'm pretty excited about that as well. I've also recently entered an activity in the summer! Now I am really looking forward to this summer! I believe I can finally do something other than SAT testing for once. This will be such a rewarding experience. I also applied for a couple more options, if I were accepted, it will be great and blissful. I've been feeling blissful throughout the entire day. I am so excited! It's quite ironic that as a high school student I've never really had a high school experience. You know, live a little bit out of textbooks. What is the point of going to a top great college, graduating and entering to a society to have no life experiences at all? That is perfectly pointless. Although PAS is mainly an academic school and does not focus on extraterrecular activities as well, we should still try to be as well-rounded as we could. I believe that is what the colleges are looking for as well. Which is why I am especially excited about the opportunity I will receive over the summer. I would hate to squander my high school years past. I mean the high school experience only comes once.

tired ( April 16, 2012)

To be perfectly honest, tonight I just want to finish my post quickly and go to bed. So, please forgive me for the invalid content of my blog post tonight. Today was rainy, and rainy in a good way. Normally I resent the rain and open my arms wide for the sun, but today is different. The rain as cool and refreshing against my skin. The rainy sky didn't seem gloomy to me today, but it seemed peaceful, and filled with tranquility. THe cool gush of wind also flushed me with relaxation. I had been a pretty happy person in all of my classes today, perhaps it has something to do with the airconditioner. I am a HUGE fan of air conditioning, and found it deeply relaxing. Unfourtunately, our homes are not allowed to use air conditioning yet perhaps until the end of may. So many more months of wait! Oh well, I'd like to take my part in saving the Earth I guess. Oh my gosh, I've totally strayed from my original beautiful topic of rain today but I guess that is ok. I mean, it's my journal right? ( I know I've repeated this countless times, but it's true). The sky is silent now, recalling yesterday there was a giant thunder the scared me. The nature sure is unpredictable. I sounded like I was going to write down a profound philosophy again when my brain is just blank. Well, good night!

The sound of Thunder( April 15, 2012)

The sound of thunder shook the ground today. The glass trembled under its very presence like a small, weeping child as a smear of lightening flash flashed across his frightened face. In the distance, a car alarm went off. I was also shook in my seat with my fingers still barely grazing the keyboard. What a frightening moment! And I am not exactly what you'd call a girly girl who would scream at the first sound of thunder. I had never crawled into bed with my parents because a thunder shook outside, it just is against my nature. I was scared of a lot of things, insects came to mind, but never of thunder, until today. The power of mother nature can never be underestimated, it seemed. I had never heard of such a thunder before in my life ( or at least, according to my memory. I had experienced the 921 Earthquake except for the fact that my child self have no memory of that or any kind.) WOw. Today I am kind of tired. I had read the story about time traveling today and it also ended with the sentence " the sound of thunder" as in the gun firing. Quite interesting right? Right, of course, I think. Oh well, now I'm just blabbering. But it's fine right? I mean, it's my journal right?

Wistful ( April 11, 2012)

Mr. Dahl decided not to give us a break and make us take the vocabulary tests in advance. OH well, I powered through that. Tomorrow we will be heading for Taichung for another annual MUN conference. Although Taichung is only one hour and thirty minutes away, I was still somewhat excited. To me, this trip is not an MUN conference, but more of a field trip. I'm sure a lot of the other " delegates" felt the same. In this conference I will assume the role of press for the first time, I still have no idea what I do there exactly, but I know it has something to do with documenting the conferences in a news paper style format. Anyway, looked forward to that :) . I also looked forward to the night of the conference where we will have some free time , that should be fun. I don't exactly know what I am going to do that night, but it probably has something to do with having fun and chilling. I didn't bring a lot of money though, so I'd probably ended up staying in the hotel with my content self as I browse through the internet ( if the wifi is free. Please let it be free) or read a book. OH well, it seemed like tomorrow will be an awful lot of fun. Or maybe it will prove me wrong. I didn't enjoy my first MUN conference as much as I expected, but I expect this time's conference to be far better. It has to be.

Basketball Game ( April 10, 2012)

It appears that at least four of us from the 9th grade class will be discussing this topic in our journals tonight. Normally I don't exactly set basketball as first priority and cease to discuss it in my journals, but today, I decided to make an exception. After all, I had dedicated at least 6 hours of my day today to basketball. Our team decided to again attempt the championship game. It was quite an interesting experience. We arrived at the school where the matches are held at approximately 8:30.What immediately hit me was nostalgia for my local school years. I missed an open school and the free air. I also missed having little desks and actually getting to know each and every one of your thirty five classmates. I missed having one homeroom teacher whose duty surpasses a ten minute supervision every morning and I missed the harmonies and unison each class tend to come up. Maybe it has something to do with being " locked" up in one floor for too long, but I do miss local schools. That, to me, is probably the most remarkable experience throughout the entire 6 hours. Not saying that the rest of the game was boring or anything, it was just that since I didn't have the chance to really get involved in the matches( I sat on the bench for most of the time). Overall, great game though. Great job guys!

Early ( April 9, 2012)

I am a bit worn out so I figured to go to bed early tonight. Today, disaster strikes and I blindly hit the panic button . Thank god that the situation resolved alright. I thought I lost my basketball jersey's shorts today . At first I thought it was no big deal and that I can just put on the jersey top and wear a pair of black sweats instead, but Mr. Lee later informed me that my doing so will cost the team two penalty shots. That will be HORRIBLE! I rummaged my room and everywhere I had ever came in contact with and was fortunate enough to find it in one of the old bags. My relief at that time was  something that cannot be expressed in words. Seemed like this weeks is lined with activities and that I'll barely get any REAL schooling. Tomorrow we have the basketball game which will certainly last for the whole day. I'm not so sure about Wednesday 's schedule, but it appeared that we might have regular class. On Thursday and Friday it is the much anticipated TAIMUN!!! We get to miss school for two full days! I just found out about this today and was surprised and delighted. Not because that I hate school, of course( hahahaha, I mean, why would anyone feel that way?) but because I'd actually enjoy the experience. This is going to be really interesting and I see a great weak ahead of me.

Spring Break Reflection ( April 8, 2012)

Today I must thereby conclude my spring break to an abrupt end. It had been an amazing experience. Throughout the process my body became weightless and my soul was set adrift. I rose from my perpetual everyday life and stepped into the realm of the things of the imaginaries. Things that are unreal and unpractical. My eyes were opened as my pupils reflected the blinding TV lights, and my fingers brushed the buttons of the remote control. I witnessed TV shows after TV shows and was teleported from one imaginary place to the next. I, was in 1800s England and witnessed a heart-stopping romance of the Wuthering Heights ( Or so I thought it was in the 1800s...I honestly don't know), then I traveled to the scene of crime where I witnessed an ingenious deduction done by the infamous Sherlock Holmes, after that, I heard the squeaks of sneakers against the hard gym floor and saw a great, enthusiastic pumping cheerleading routine. I also saw Tom Cruise, correction, or should I say " Ethan Hunt" descend from a ceiling of some bank or something ( wasn't actually paying attention). It's too bad my favorite TV dramas were off this week. One wouldn't come on until next Tuesday, and the other by the end of the SUMMER! Can you believe that? Wow, how much have the tone of this passage shifted. Hmm...

March 29, 2012 ( The Final)

Today is the last night for the midterms this week, hurray! I've had enough of midterms after midterms and can already imagine the blissful scenery where PAS students rejoiced in the hallways. The teachers would be stunned, as most PAS students( much like me) have never expressed so much emotion in public. Haha. Alright, I need to finish this journal entry. There isn't much to write about today since nothing major really happened. BUt I bet if I were to write a journal tomorrow, it would be very different. The sky would go from grey to blue in a millie second and it only takes one bell to do so. I got kind of sick today, catching just a pretty normal cold. In school , I still tried to exhibit my best behavior and most people didn't know that I was sick. I hope they don't think I'm faking to be sick cause I wasn't. Anyway, I really really need to go bed right now yet the journal still extended an inviting hand, waiting for me to print a few more black letters onto its blank white page. Remember yesterday when I said the world is a tightly woven story and we are writing a story everyday with each pasting moment of our lives? Well, then we will be writing a double story! Ever seen in those movies when you see a character watching a movie? I think that's exactly what we're doing now. This morning this morning I see myself coming in...

March 28, 2012.( A Tightly Woven Story)

The world as we know it is composed of stories of millions. Each  individual that has ever consumed some sort of materials on Earth has a story. Starting from an embryo, we had been writing it, adding frivolously to those invisible pages. We are prolific writers, for we write a lot. As each and every second of our lives became history, more words were added. We tried to grasp onto the present, but it seemed to slip through our fingers like quicksand whenever our soft fingertips grazed past its delicate surface. That is a depressing thought. Yet not if you look at it from the story perspective. Look around you, and you will see what I mean. What did you see? Nothing? A blank wall? Your classmates? Your family? Each and everything that your eye swept across has a story. The Earth, the Moon, the Stars, the milkway...the world is filled with contentious stories. Our world is a tightly woven story that combines each individual's story and make it into a grand master piece worthy of best writers every invented. The stories will move any soul and they are so inspiring. Why? Because we, as a member among the living, has lived it. We are great writers, story tellers, just by doing what we do everyday. The world is one tightly woven story, and believe it or not, you are part of that story.

March 27, 2012 ( Scarlet Ibis)

A scarlet Ibis is anything that is red unique special and beautiful. It is also anything that isn't meant to exist, but does. Today, as I reviewed the content of the story, I couldn't help but appreciate its exotic beauty. Although I was extremely weary today and the thought of three more stories waving their hands at me wasn't exactly the most exciting and cheerful thought, I still admire James Hursts' ability to conjure up such a great story to teach everyone a lesson: pride can be a terrible and a wonderful thing. It can give birth to new life, and kill. Just the way blood gives birth to both life and death. I also learned from the story to not apply the image I want from others to others, that will only lead to ultimate self-destruction. Each and everyone of us is an unique individual that should be acknowledged. No one is born worse than anyone else since no one gets to choose where they will land and which families they will be born into. We may have just as much chance landing in that particular mother as Doodle, and he may have the exact same chance of landing in our mother's womb as us. Life really is quite explicable, isn't it? When you really start digging in, the world that used to make so much sense suddenly became a huge question mark. Well, maybe it's just us humans who are overcomplicating thins as usual.

March 26, 2012 ( Simplicity)

Often times during the most devastating times, humans returned to the simplicity of life. Once the things they once took for granted was deprived from them, they learned to appreciate other basic things that has a way of always being around. An example is winter. During winter, I hoped for the blissful sun of the summer and short-sleeved T-shirts. Yet now that spring has arrived and the heat has came back to me, mosquitoes came. They are SO annoying and I always fail to catch them or smash them, or whatsoever. Now I've started to wish for winter again, even though summer has not even begun yet. Alright, I Have strayed from my seemingly philosophical topic. But that's ok, right? I mean, it is my journal after all. No one, uh uh, not a single human being, not a single life form have the right to censor anything I put on this journal. For all I care, I could have typed in things such as " twinkle twinkle twinkle twinkle....x 100 and make that my entire entry". I don't think anyone has the right to censor that. Maybe there are great minds among us that are special and much more unique than the normal. Ok, I have again, strayed from the original topic. For the last few entries, I have been pretty focused. Hmm...Well I guess it's ok to let your mind drift sometimes.

March 25, 2012 ( Ants and triumph)

I strode through the willows today, my hands behind my back. My footsteps were slow and my pace was low, behind me the great wind howled. Faintly, I could hear the sound of trampling feet that shook little particles of soil. With weary eyes, I side-glanced to see a cuddle army of ants. Their tiny bodies bright orange, their six long legs pitch black. And the two things moving on their forehead, was the freakiest of that. My hands flew from my back to cover my parted lips, and back I sprung nearly on , all fours. I was miles away when the song of the marching rhythm finally reached me. To be truthful, it has always been there, it was just my panicked scream that, shunted it out. I could picture, in my mental eyes, thousands of orange black ants, marching in unisons. Carrying cargos 20 times their body weight. What are they marching for? Who knows. But they knew, deep down, they were marching for a greater purpose. A purpose more divine then their individual self. One day, perhaps in death, these ants will figure out what they had done in life, and realize that they had indeed done great for their kind. Right now, they accept what life has laid for them, and marched under the glaring sun, in triumph. I too, held my head up high with my nose against the sun, and marched home, my footsteps rumbled the earth. 

March 22, 2012 ( The Wizard of Oz)

This year's musical production is on the Wizard of Oz. I used to find the process tedious and came to resent the play, yet now on retrospect, it seemed that the play is actually quite great. Now as I am typing this journal, I am watching the song " If I only Had a Heart" performed by Brian Farmer and his crew. He is really good, and I came to enjoy the performance very much. I planned to listen to the song about the lion next. I wonder if we will have a biology quiz tomorrow. Anyway, we were supposed to do our biology assignment by taking pictures. It was quite interesting actually to stroll down the park under the golden radiant sunshine. It has been ages since I had taken a walk among nature. The only time I exercise was during basketball practices for one hour and thirty minutes each time. So in total, I exercise for about four hours and thirty minutes a week. I'm not sure if that's enough but I know that it is a lot more then the exercise I received in eighth grade that's for sure! I guess that's the good side about this assignment, it gets you to go out into nature and perhaps enjoy it a little bit. It is, after all, biology, the study of life. And it is, after all, science, the study of nature itself. Oh well, I think I can draw a conclusion to my journal entry tonight. Have a lovely day tomorrow everyone!

March 21, 2012 ( Break time)

Tomorrow will be Thursday , just a few days away from mid-term week. I have a spanish midterm, an english midterm, an expository Writing Quiz+ midterm, a biology midterm( That involves 9 chapter and a total of 36 sections approximately), and a geometry midterm. Oh my, that sure is a lot of tests! Complaining actually won't do me too much good here, the best solution I have so far is to just finish all the homework due next week and study like mad during the weekend. I cannot avoid to have any sorts of distractions that might stray me away from perfection ( :D) Anyway, while the studying process may be painful, I found joy in some of the assignments I did today. We had to do a resolution for the Model of United Nations and I chose to do an issue on the Social, Humanitarian, and Culture Council as the United States debating the issue about " Strengthening crime prevention and criminal justice response to violence against women." I thought this issue was fairly interesting in terms of the difficulty to actually put a stop to the situation. I finished most of my resolution, but I can't say I did a great job. I've had a bad history with resolutions and got a pretty low score for a resolution I was fairly proud of last time. What I can say is that I had fun doing it . Which is all that matters, right?

March 20, 2012 ( Interesting indeed)

Today is quite an ordeal as I thought the expository writing draft was due tomorrow. Ok, that is completely irrelevant. Anyway, I want to discuss in today's entry about the symbolisms in movies. Movies have gone a way to make patterns in it and there are a couple of really common ones. 1) Driving and texting. Whenever you see some actor in a movie driving and perhaps texting or looking distracted, there will be an at least 80% chance that either he or she will run into a car accident. It has became an almost unavoidable aspect of movie life. Last time I was watching the show Glee and I saw Quinn texting, there was some strange music playing in the background which made the atmosphere even weirder, and I kept praying, " oh please don't die, please don't get into an accident" but she got into a car accident. Anyway, here goes the no driving and texting at the same time rule. It applies to real life as well. Another one is the part when an actor and an actress stared into each other's eyes, than can be sure that they will share a passionate kiss afterwards. I think. This is kind of cliche and a well duh one. Now I'm pretty much done and don' know what else to write...that is sad. Ok, um, let me think. Ok, there really is none. So I guess I'll end the post right here. I'm sure you are getting bored anyway.

March 20, 2012 ( Bubbles)

In the famous children's tale of the Little Mermaid, the mermaid faded into bubbles after the prince decided to marry another girl. It is quite sad of a story and is not considered a typical disney fairytale. Bubbles in this case, symbolizes vanity in life. Do bubbles always symbolize this, though? Of course not. To most of us,  bubbles are somethings that are ephemeral but beautiful. When we see a bubble, we race after if, wanting to glide our fingers over its smooth surface. When we see bubbles, we remember those hysteric giggles we had as we see our twisted face on the smooth surface of the bubble. Bubbles are a precious creation by man itself. Man can create something so beautiful with a single whiff of his or her breath. Kind of reminds me of how God created man in the Bible( not a christian or of any religions. I'm fine with all religions, but just saying from what I know). Gods around the world in many kinds of relationship seemed to have made men out of clay or mud of some sort and breathed life into them. Kind of reminds me of the bubbles ( I know I've said that already). Oh well, just a though. Most of my blog entries aren't very well-organized these days cause I'm so tired and my brain can't function right. I need to change a method, but now I've procrastinated so...Oh well. I'm still going to change that.

March 18, 2012 ( Random Jumbo )

Living in an imaginable word seemed far easier then living in the real world sometimes. This weekend was uncannily hot and the wooden floors in my house was piled with water from the air( You know the science. There was already moisture all around the house, then the sudden hot temperature descended, and the hot air plus the moisture condensed to form water that landed no the ground. Simple science. The same way rain was formed). On Saturday, there was literally puddles around them house I had to tiptoe by. Pretty exciting, huh? By the way, I was hooked to a few new shows that show promise, can't wait to start next week :) Now what I'm going to say is completely random and detached from the remaining blog post, but it has been on my mind for quite some time now and I figured that I should express that thought now. It's now or never. Alright, here we go. I dislike those who tell people how frustrated they are ALL the time and expect sympathy. I have known a couple people who are like that and each time I listened to their complaints, I wanted to tell them to just go get a life. Ok, I probably should too for being so misanthropic and misunderstanding. I do like to listen to people, but I don't like to listen to complaints of a certain kind for some reason.

March 15, 2012 ( Last day of the tiring week!)

Ok, literally, that is not exactly true as I still got some work to accomplish during the weekend. Yet after Biology on Friday, I will finally be free from the three tests- Geometry, Spanish, and English. Yeah! Ok, I know this blog post is pretty meaningless and the grammar and spelling terrible, but since it's supposed to be about me, I don't suppose it really matters. Or does it? Some people consider that any writers whose writing has been made public from one way or another be hold responsible of their work. Responsible, as in take the consequences of their works. Is that true? Will this piece of bad- quality writing influence more bad writing for the years to come? It's really up for you to decide. As in for me, I don't personally thought I had that big of an impact on society and random blabbering should be tolerated. Don't you feel this way? Aren't there times when you just felt like typing whatever is on your mind? Well, I am currently experiencing one of those days. Tomorrow we will finish our Geometry test and Biology Quiz and I will be the happiest person in the world, for that moment anyway. Alright, I think I may have exceeded the 200 word maximum limit for this blog post Mr. Dahl suggest us to keep so I will end it right here. Relieved, are you? Sure. How do I feel? I honestly don't care.

March 14, 2012 ( March 14)

March 14 is a very special occasion as many holidays collided at this point. First of all, March 14th is known as the white day: A holiday particularly popular in Japan. On February 14 the namely Valentines Day, girls give the boys chocolate to show their feelings for them. On March 14, white day, however, boys give the girls whom their feelings returned white chocolate( i think) back. I found out about this tradition when I watched japanese manga a few years back and found it  quite. Well, seemed like love is highly valued in Japan. I mean, they went into the trouble to create two separate holidays just so people can show their feelings...ok. The other special occasion that happened on March 14th is PI day! I'm sure that all of you have at least stumbled upon it at some point in life. Why pi day? Well, it's actually kind of funny. Everyone knows that pi = 3.14 right? Well, it happened that the number 3.14 can be best represented by March 14! Hilarious I know. March 14 also happened to be Albert Einstein 's birthday. E=mcsaure, ring a bell? It's incredible that so many special occasions occurred on March 14. As in for me, I drank a brief today for the fact that I finally finished my spanish chapter test! So happy! One down, two more to go! Alright. I'd better get back to work now. See you guys later :)

March 13, 2012 ( Reflection)

Seemed that these days I had lost focus in areas such as MUN that is not a main academic course. Today, I'm putting that to a stop when it's still not too late :) Alright...I spent today anxious about the tests tomorrow and so on, but I guess it's time to put that to a stop as well. To be honest, I feared and feared and feared but then I at last realized that I didn't even know what I was fearing. Are the tests really that hard? No. Do I know how to answer the questions? Yes, I do. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself- Franklin. D. Roosevelt once said, a profound quote indeed. Instead of worrying about tests, I should better spend my time by make every moment of my day count. The days are nouns, touch them. The hands are churches that worship the world- from the poem " Daily" tells us this value as well. Instead of worrying and complaining, I should simply do my best and I will definitely get the desirable results. That's great news to hear :) Oh well, I should also think about Friday. The word has never appeared so divine to me as it has right now. Friday will put an end to all my conflicts and struggles this week over my weakest subjects! Isn't that great?? Of course it is! After first period- Geometry chapter test I will be free to peruse whatever is in my interest! That is just awesome! I am certainly looking forward to that.

March 12, 2012 ( Somewhere over the rainbow)

ONe of my favorite bands- The Piano Guys did a cover of the all time classic from the wizard of oz- Somewhere over the Rainbow. It was absolutely fantastic. It seemed like I had forgotten about such simple beauty persists in humanity, especially when society focused only on the human flaws. Global warming, greed...etc has became a label all humans wore, it has became sin that we are all born with. Yet if you were to really stop and listen, you can hear a soft melodious tune of humanity that sung in every human's hearts as well. Somewhere over the rainbow way up high, there's a land that I dreamed of once in a lullaby...What is that land I dream of? The song doesn't accurately say. I think the main point of the song is however, that there is a place we escape to whenever we were encountered with troubles, and it is the purest and most beautiful land of humanity. Never forget that. It is ok to dream. It is ok to just let your thoughts drift sometimes and it is ok to just drift. Somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly.....And the dreams that you dared to oh why oh why can't I? Some day I'll wish upon the star, wake up where the clouds are far behind me....Remember that paradise does exist, if it stays a part of you and am not forgotten.

March 11, 2012( The American Dragon)

It would be the most fitting to say that today was quite a troublesome day as I went through the hours by finishing as much homework as possible. That is not the point of this entry, however, I have spent too many entries doing just exactly that. Today , I would like to advocate the disney show " The American Dragon". In the cartoon series, the protagonist- Jake Long lead a double life as a normal middle schooler( which he is not very good at being), and the american dragon who is in charge of the protection of all magical creatures in New York City. Yes, you got it! Magical creatures does exist in this series! Every going from santa clause to unicorns to goblins to elves...there you have it. Jake is half chinese and half american and enjoys wearing a large amount of green hair grease on his dark hair...it has became a defining characteristic for him. He just like his hair stands out in the crowd ( even when he's not a dragon). He is outgoing, gregarious, justified, and sometimes quite troublesome as trouble has a way to find him. He has a crush on Rose, a blond girl who turned out to be a slayer of dragon( Hmm...classic disney conflict). They would constantly battle each other outside of school though none assume the identity of the other until much later. I found this cartoon series incredibly funny, and loved it :D

March 8, 2012 (Objectivism)

I had a fairly pleasant evening today with only minimum amount of homework, yet I still managed to be typing my blog at 11:10 at night. Sometimes I just don't get myself :P. Alright, a reflection on my day. Today went on generally quite well and I was surprised by some teacher's kindness towards me. I decided that the world is filled with too many opportunities for me to give up. I suppose I will try even harder then :) . These days I decided to talk about philosophical things in my blog to fill up some empty space and also to fill my thoughts. Last time I discussed the meaning of life( for those who didn't read it, my answer is to LIVE. If you don't understand, please go check it out :)) Today I would like to give feedback toward Ayn Rand and her philosophical approach towards life- objectivism. I would personally say that I stand in between her theory and her opposites. It is true that men should do their best in pursuing their own happiness, but could they put that value above all means? What of morality then? Should rationality completely take over emotions and become the supreme of human beings? I honestly don't know. Just thought her theory was kind of interesting. Should we try to make our lives happy and make that the objective of our existence?

March 7, 2012 ( Interesting indeed)

Today in this blog post I would like to focus on the philosophical element of " What is the meaning of life"? What is the meaning of life, people wondered throughout century, when life itself is ephemeral and short-lived? What is the point of not enjoying yourself when you are on this Earth? Here, I will give my personal opinion. We exist and live for the very same reason other organisms on Earth existed and lived. We did not exist for some sort of divine purpose, we are just here because we ARE. We have a natural instinct to live and survive. We don't live because there is some sort of deep divine mission throughout our life, we live because we have a natural crave to WANT to live. And that by itself is a holy purpose that kept life going on Earth for years. Animals also have the same crave. It is true that sometimes life gets hard and you seemed to be in a struggle without end, but instead of focusing on the question of " why should I struggle?" focus on the problem itself. Oftentimes the people who actually have the time to question" Why should I struggle" are not trying hard enough nor are they devoted to their skill. Life is short and beautiful, and through its shortness do we really learn to treasure it. Treasure every moment you have on this Earth and worry about the meaning of it later, when you're dead. I think this will make life a lot easier.

March 6, 2012 ( Individualism)

Having read a couple of books illustrating the concept of individualism, I decided that I will today share my opinions about it. Individualism is something that sets each and every person unique. Every single person has individuality within them, as each and every one of them is a separate individual. No two individuals on Earth can ever be identical. The problem lies in the express of one's unique individuality. Some people were afraid to be different and conserve their own individualism. In a selfless society where scarification for your brothers is the center of all morals, this will be the case. Individualism marks people different which is promoting inequality. I don't personally think it is important for one to "TRY" to let their individualism shine. Individualism is something that flows naturally in their actions and ways, it will be expressed naturally if one does not try to suppress it. People often mistake blunt speech and capricious actions as signs of individualism, I don't think so. Always speaking of the thing that is on your mind and not concealing your inside thought is not individualism. As mentioned, individualism is what sets you unique from others and it shouldn't be forced out. Blunt speech pattern can be an aspect of a person's personality, but does that set a person as an " individual"? What is an individual? An individual is someone that is different from others with something unique about him. If you were to see someone you dislike and say right to his or her face, " I hate you." Is that individualism? To talk without consideration, is that individualism? I just want to once again emphasize that individualism is not a forced element, if one does not suppress his or her character out of the desire for conformity, he or she is expressing individualism.

March 5, 2012 ( Reason why)

I decide to do in this blog a reflection of my current behavior. My bed time seemed to have been postponed later and later and I know that this kind of situation can't continue on. What exactly did I do that was different? Well I know that I started to fear that I won't be able to finish my work in the morning so I started working into the night. Is there a solution to this? Probably not in the short term. Perhaps I should start putting homework instead of studying in the weekends. Yeah, that is the only solution. I've been procrastinating homework wise and this habit is got to stop. Alright, then problem solved. THese days I am focusing to get my math grade up and it seemed to have worked. I can always get a pretty standard score if I studied hard and tried to catch up which is always nice thing to see. You should have seen my reaction last time when I saw my score, I had anticipated a far lower score! I guess handwork can really overcome anything:) Alright, I still have one more work to do. I have to finish my MUN speech for tomorrow and perhaps practice a couple of times. I also realized why my MUN grades weren't standard, I never practice for my speeches. I used to not need to, but I have apparently lost practice. Well, practice makes perfect. Hopefully, this will save my MUN grade this quarter :D

Sunday, March 4, 2012 ( I'm not Afraid)

We have too many things due tomorrow. A poem and a test!!! For English and History!!! I don't know what to do. I guess I'll have a pretty long night then....I suppose rather then winning, I should just stand up and face the problem head on. I'm already half done with my poem, and finished studying half my history...Now, I will study history first then do the poem. My grammar now sucked like hell but I couldn't help it. Am I afraid I'll stay up all night doing this? No. I'm not because I KNOW for a fact that I will. What do you know? Hahahaa. I'll probably be working until like three in the morning. I'll probably sit aside during basketball practice tomorrow because I have a stomachache...Oh well, life just doesn't treat you too kind at times. There are, however, things that can comfort me. Right now I am listening to Green Day's 21 Guns piano cover by a guy named Robin. It is awesome! I probably listened to it for like ten times throughout the weekend! His music comforted me and now I felt that I'm ready for anything. Oh well, better get back to work then. If anyone of my friends wants to contact me, you guys will be able to reach me until at least two o clock tonight. Have fun doing whatever it is that you guys are doing! Good luck!

March 1, 2012 ( Time flies)

As I consciously peaked at the calendar, I realized that it is March 2, 2012. My freshman year is already more then half over. Then I'm going to go to tenth grade, and the same thing will happen again. It has been my wish to finish high school quickly and go to the college of my choice. I imagined my self as a confident and bright individual, one who is pretty         witty and happy. Now, I realized may I'd like to slow down a little bit. I mean, what's the hurry? As I know now how time flies, I would have to grasp every minute as if it is the very last. Alright. I suppose this will cover for the part about time flies. Now I can just type about random things about my day. My entry is not focused, I know, but I really ran out of things to write about. I just a pair of pretty cool mirror twins named Helena and Maria sing on youtube. They are pretty good singers and have a good country voice. I really like them. Ok....They are about 25 or 26 right now and I think sells their music on itunes. What is really especially cool about them is their mirror twiness. I didn't know that this kind of thing existed before, but a mirror twin are twins that often have opposite traits. Helena I think is right-handed while Maria is left-handed. PRetty cool, huh?

February 29, 2012 ( 228 lament)

It occurred to me that I had been rather ignorant of the day of 228. It was a date where a massacre was issued from the government of Taiwan that took the lives of many innocent educated members of Taiwan. Most people today regarded this day as a holiday, but that is actually deeply disrespectful. As a taiwanese, I feel that it is my duty to put this information out there so the tears and blood spilled will not be wasted. The Taiwanese government at the time of 228 was an enclosed one. Taiwan at that time was only a named democracy, but was actually under a rule that resembled in some degree, dictatorship. The people had little rights of freedom and no freedom of speech. The elites of society, however, rose against this. They saw the government as unjust and many did what they could to educate the public about true democracy. Many were killed and imprisoned and or exiled. On the date 228, thousands of innocent elites and their associates were executed. The blood they shed and the scar that was ripped open that day will never mend. It will, remain forever in every Taiwanese's heart. Each and every year, the president of Taiwan would apologize to the victims of the 228 massacre and would receive nothing but censure in return. The mistakes made at that time was too grand to be covered by a slight bow of the head. In this blog post, I send victims of 228 my sincere mourn and lamentations.

February 28, 2012 ( Nerds)

Mr. Wahlgren and his senior MUN crew still has not returned to the blissful learning diligence of Pacific American school; We took the liberty of discussion in his MUN period. A technological issue was addressed as Ms. Sue attempted to play the whole documentary prepared for us without it pausing. Sad to say, not one single student out of the thirty was sympathetic to her difficult plight. Some of us even tried to hinder her progress by occupying the wireless line( It doesn't really work, but it was an attempt anyway). After an unsuccessful thirty minutes of trial, Ms. Sue gave up and the period turned into a study-hall, just as we hoped it  would. I took out my expository writing draft and began editing it, circling the points of questions it contains. After so, I started to study for the biology quiz that will take place this friday. I am extremely thankful, by the way, that the quiz is on one section only. I felt that I was almost finished in less then one hour! That's great news! Anyone who is reading this blog post will imagine me to be incredibly nerdy as all I can talk about is school and school work. A study hall, seemed to have became the best thing that has happened to me. In truth, it may be true. Our school provided a strongly academic environment and " nerds" are literally extolled here. I am not. Now you can just see how extreme our school is about getting good grades and getting into good colleges or whatsoever. We're all nerds. Nerds and nerds till the end.

Sunday, February 27, 2012 ( Didn't work hard)

I didn't really study hard today. Somehow someway, my heart managed to convince the logic of my brain that it is ok to let it go. I've had a painstaking week studying math like crazy, I think I do deserve a little break at least. So it was decided for me to rest on that date! haha. Yet now, I feel so guilty about my laziness and the terrible grammar on this blog entry. SO...I ran out of things to write. Today I've been giving some thought to my future again and I managed to rule out the things I cannot become. First, I cannot become a traveler's agent, not can I become an artist nor can I become a dentist and nor can I become a taxi driver. I have a terrible sense of direction and I also hated to work with my hands! IT seemed like I was born to be a professional bad artist, just like some people are born to become professional losers in the stock market. Haha :D. Just kidding. Anyway, I also couldn't do math stuff since I also happen to suck at math. That is a fact that has been known to me since I was very little. Now it is very funny that I'm having my online coaching class but the music I secretly played in the background is actually louder than the teacher's voice, almost drowning it. The music in fact is so good that I danced to the rhythm a little.It's ok cause I can still answer the questions at the same time. Hurray for MULTI-TASKING!

Monday 26, 2012 (Too short to even care at all)

Life's too short to even care at all. It is hard to imagine that one day  my lids will never raise to see the golden sunlight, that one day my body will be sealed underground where my hands can grasp only dirt. These two days I seemed to have lost motivation to do many things. Thankfully, I was able to retrieve energy from movies and books. I am truly thankful. I watched a movie that taught me the meaning of life. Despite the fact that the main character encountered many life-threatening situations and lost many people he loved, he treasured each and every life he encountered. He will literarily sacrifice himself to save another life, even those that had mistreated him. Seeing the movie granted me motivation to go on in life. A good movie doesn't need romance or action, it just needs a message. In this case, the main character has delivered through his actions, an important message: Life is too short to not care at all. The volubility of life exists through its ephemerality. If all humans can live forever, there will be no value in life would there? A few songs I listened to also had a positive effect on me. There was a guy on youtube who did a remake on the classic song- Somewhere over the rainbow, and it was awesome! I can literarily still hear his soothing voice echoing in my ears! You guys should check him out sometimes!

Thursday, February 23, 2012( COUNTDOWN)

Tomorrow, I will finally be finished with the stressful math chapter test! To be perfectly honest, the test has been troubling me for the whole week. I know this concept may be extremely unfamiliar with some of you guys( especially Angela). It seemed ridiculous for a person to be stressed out over such a simple geometry test, yet I was. I am usually an expertise in memorization. My memory works very well especially in terms of stories and other stuff. When it came to math, however, my memory can  be one of the worst ever. In other words, I can remember a story or literary technique that I no longer seine high school which I learned in forth grade, but couldn't remember the simplest Algebra formula from just a year ago. I don't attend any math cram schools though I definitely should so each lesson in math is completely new to me....Anyway, I hope you( especially Angela) will understand. Anyway, I'm just glad that the test will be over tomorrow. What a relief it will be! I got a low score for a history homework today and I had no idea why. This is probably the lowest score I've ever gotten when I tried so hard...I don't get why. Maybe he marked it wrong or something. I think he did. I hope he did. Well anyways, this will be my last journal entry for this week. We will have a 228 break soon after, it will be AWESOME!

Wednesday, February 22, 2012( Minutes countdown)

I was just about to do my blog when I made an interesting observation: It is minutes until Thursday. In other words, in about 12 minutes, it will no longer bey February 22, 2012, instead, it will be February 23, 2012! Remarkable how little minutes can make such a huge difference! This probably means I shouldn't be staying up for so late. Today was an ok day except for the math test on Friday is tormenting me for the whole week. I can't wait to get it over with. ON Friday, I'll be so cheerful that I'll be willing to do practically anything! LOVES!!!! Now as I bob my head up and down to some background music, I am again going to emphasize the power of music. IT really is remarkable. Tomorrow my mom want me to go listen to the presentation about the world scholar cup I think in Singapore. It is an international debate contest. Oh well, may as well. What I am primarily concerned with now is getting up tomorrow on time. I HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO get up tomorrow on time!!!! I apologize for my writing because I am now incredibly tired and so I'm simply typing the first thing that came to my mind. Oh well, I'm sure you can somehow relate to that couldn't you? I am actually so tired that I don't even bother to count my words. Insteads, I'm just going to let it go to the bottom column, which will be about 200 words. Well above standard :)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012 ( NEver Let Go)

Sue Sylvester is best remembered for her red track suit and cruelty towards people in general. Most people remembered her as the selfish cheerleading coach who has done nothing but made the most beloved Glee club miserable. Today, however, I am here to justify that. I am not a particular Sylvester fan nor am I a fan of torture, but in the recent episodes as I witnessed Sue's downfall, I think her character deserved some sort of justification. If you were to look at Sue in a superficial angle and judge her from what she's done, which isn't unreasonable, you would see her as mainly a joker of the show. An obstacle the Glee Club will eventually overcome anyway. It is not true. Sue Sylvester is a strong woman. She is self-centered and had a huge ego, but she infect, needed love as well. She was dependent upon her younger and disabled sister- Jean, than later on, a disabled high school girl- Becky. In both of their lives, the two agreed that Sue played a parental role in their lives. She, was the person they most loved. To be truthful, Sue was nothing but a lonely figure. Without the fame and glory, she is on the edge of collapse. Her life is so hollow. She has no family, no life, no love. Which is why her life had to be set with goals to destroy others'. Now the fact that Sue is trying to have a child just pains me. Loneliness had driven away her logic. This is bound to be a failed pregnancy. She is so desperate for love... From SUe Sylvester we can learn one thing: When you see love, grasp it as tight as you could. Don't let go.

Monday 21, 2012 ( Fatigue)

A lot of my posts had been about how tired I am, because I in fact, am. Please don't mistake me for another whinny who hates life. I don't hate life. It's just that sometimes I wish that I can have a little break. I used many methods to fulfill my restless life. Right now, for an instance, I am listening to the new hit single " What doesn't kill you make you stronger" and that song seemed to fill a new strength in my body. I know I will eventually come out of the shadows of math because " what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" . Or so I hope. Haha. But seriously, this is actually a great song that seemed to represent my life so far. I am not a genius in many fields, and it takes a lot of handwork for me to get good grades. Oh my god I love glee. Their background chorus is amazing! I've decided to lengthen my journal just so I can listen to it again. I love this song now. It's like a theme song for my life :) I found my self nodding to every beat and every lyric. I mean, if my life is a play, which it is according to William Shakespeare, this would be the background music that would be playing. People may mistake me for some type of useless person, but they are dead wrong. I may not have been the best person in the beginning, but I'll eventually get there. What doesn't kill me makes me STRONGER!!!! GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE ELSE!

Sunday, February 19, 2012. (Switched At Birth)

Switched at Bith is a ABC family show illustrating how two families deal with the dilemma which their daughters were accidentally " switched at birth". The story happened in California, somewhere near mission hills, I suppose. Bay Kennish, an authentic high school artist, took a blood test after sixteen years of doubting her real identity and discovered there was a 99% chance that she was not related to the Kennish. The family went into devastation. If Bay was not the real Kennish daughter, than who was? Daphne Vascus, a sweet, good girl who was a talent in basketball, and her single, half-portirican mother Regina one day showed up at the Kennish's footsteps. The meeting was delightful experience for the Kennish family as they touched the blond hair so similar to their own and gaze into those similar blue eyes. The Kennish family made a huge effort to get to know their long lost daughter, while Bay, on the otherhand, felt disconnected and jealous. Unlike Daphne, she was nowhere new a mother's perfect daughter. She was not blond, nor does she have blue eyes. Instead, she has dark, wavy hair and dark eyes. She does not get perfect grades, in fact, it took several tutors's effort for her to pass junior high school. Bay half-viewed Daphne's intrusion into her world as inferior, but that, is a side that she kept to herself.

Thursday, February 16, 2012( Wonder )

I have no idea what I'm going to do in the future. There is no subject in school that I express a particular interest in, all the subjects are similar to me. I do know that I can't specialize in language or math, however, so I suppose that sort of narrows down the list. When I was little, I used to want to become a doctor/ dentist just like my mother. When I got into elementary school, I used to write down the word " scientist" under the column of my dream job worksheet. In middle school, I'm not so sure anymore. This situation went on until now. Most of my classmates have a future goal. ONe wanted to become a psychology doctor I think, several wants to become CEOs of a company, one wants to become a success in the business world, another would like to venture into the world of technology, another would like to become a lawyer. It seemed as if everybody's got a goal they can work towards, except me. I still have no idea what I'm going to do in the future. I suppose that will be something worth thinking about in the future. Yep.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012 ( PIano Guys)

There are a lot of pure talents on youtube. People who were unsigned by big companies who are free to express art in a way that most appeals to their inner soul and not to the benefit of others. Last time,  I introduced to you guys a couple of vocal artists. Among them all my favorite is Christina Grimmie who has an outstanding voice you would never expect to exist. I recently fell in love with her autotune series number 5 where she and her best friend sung about random things about larva lamps and zoos and stuff. Today I want to introduce another band that I recently discovered0- the piano guys. They are two middle-aged musicians who played the cello and violin in a modern tone. They had done covers of paradise by coldly I think, pirates of the carribean...etc. Each of their covers are outstanding and gives people a very pleasant feeling in their hearts. I especially liked the cellist. He sure is really good with his instrument, and he also seemed to be enjoying each and every moment he gets to play as well. I really like this group.